Thursday, December 17, 2009

Friday, December 4, 2009


Hello friends, I think I really needed to vent tonight and this is going to be a bit of a long rant so please bear with me. I guess what it boils down to is the constant question of “What am I?” I think my earliest memory was in fact when I was four years old. I remember sitting in the bath tub and thinking about what would it be like to be a girl. I remember saying out loud “I wish I could be a girl” Then I remember feeling funny between my legs. It was arousal but for an innocent child it was excitement because I thought I was about to be turned into a girl. Then for many years those thoughts left me, they came back years later. Of course by then when I felt funny I knew why I was feeling funny, I used to have so many fantasies of becoming female friends. Body swapping and all that fun stuff. I used to put on female clothes with the wish that I was going to change just by wearing the clothes. I also remember seeing the movie “Switch” I was so utterly shocked that there was a movie like that. I then believed my dreams were possible, wishing to the He/She up in the sky (If you seen the movie you will get that reference). Of course nothing happened; in fact it was slightly depressing. Then in 1997 I was fully exposed to the wonderful world of TG fiction and the TG world. I was incredibly relieved to discover I was not alone in having these fantasies. Of course with discovering this world I also discovered that my desire and need to be a girl became stronger. Being older and slightly wiser I did research on Transgendered people. The idea of going for it all and becoming a Transgendered woman crossed my mind many times. But the more I thought about it and the more I read. I realized one thing, having SRS would not have made me happy. This is where I am completely lost within my soul, what the hell am I? I want a vagina in fact id do anything to have a vagina. Yet I don’t want the surgery, I don’t want a surgically created body. I want natural curves; I want to feel my natural breasts grow. I want ovaries, I want the uterus, and I even want to have the bloody periods (No Pun intended). I want to experience birth; I want a vulva a real friggin vulva. This is where the stupidity in my life comes into play, first thing I did was take premarin when I was about 12 or 13. I took a lot it wasn’t mine it was a relative going through menopause. I have puffy areolas now; I still to this day swear I have puffy areolas because of that. I have never felt another man’s chest but I dunno if the lump underneath the areolas is normal in a male. Some have said I’m a fetishist, others have called me TG others said I was weird. I AM ME!!!! What I am is another question. I am a guy and I am built like a guy. I could never feel feminine the way I want to because of that fact. I am weird when I girl watched there would be two types I would break it down to. #1. Girls I wanted to make love to. #2. Girls I was jealous of and wanted to be.

I am such a dork, every time I visit a mall I always have the hope I would find a Spells R us store. I look for spells online to fulfill my desires. I even go to flea markets hoping to find something that will change me. I have tried many times to sell my soul (Obviously didn’t work) In my real life only three people know of my wishes and desires. One doesn’t understand it but begrudgingly accepts it. One I regret not telling sooner as she would have embraced it and helped me. And the third is not living anymore. It’s a life of confusion and wants; will I ever be a female? I highly doubt it, but I would give almost anything to become one even if it was for just a day.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Random Captions

I am taking a hiatus on the series because in doing it I discovered it was well repetitive so we will see anyways enjoy these caps.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Some Questions

Ok so as I go into the next part of my series I was wondering if it i any good or even if it is worthwhile for me to continue on. I am very neurotic when it comes to this stuff and I know I do this mostly for myself but also if there isnt much of an interest I lose ambition and inspiration. Yeah I know Im weird anyways I am doing three straight nights of captioning so please stay tuned to this station and my mothership the Haven.

Monday, November 23, 2009

My favorite TG fiction Stories

Well this is an Homage to a sample of my favorite TG fiction stories. I created a caption for each one, these do not do any justice to the orignal stories. This is but a mere tribute to some of the best fiction I have ever read.
AF-Prom Date By Morpheus

Truly one of my favorite AF stories, including a nice transformation sequence and just an all around good tale.
Feel free to check it out
AF-Prom Date

 or why I hate My little Brother By: Bashful

I Just lurved this story the first time I ever read it. It was cute and funny and made me even envious of the main characters.
Check it out

County Fair By: The Professor

A truly fantastic story, I lurved the transformation sequences to the mind alterations. I really enjoy this story always nice to go back to an old favorite like this one.
Check it out
County Fair

Kate Draffen By Swishy

I am a creature of habit and I read tons of TG fiction and I usually keep going back to my old ones. This however is really new and became a personal favorite of mine. It is by far an excellent story and my caption does not do it justice.
Check it out
Kate Draffen Parts 1-9

Stuck By: Vallee

This one is truly memorable for me, it is one of the first stories I read. This story really turned me on to TG fiction and Captions. It truly showed me that I wasnt alone in having fantasies like this and that there was more to TG than the movie "Switch" Sadly the story ends on a cliffhanger, and I have never found part 2. Although I swear I found it once but I have never been able to find it. So if you know of the second part please LET ME KNOW!!!!! I will so give anything to read more on this. But I may write the second part to it I dont know.
CHeck it out

I hope you all enjoyed these and please if you havent read them give it a try. Also id love comments if you have any.

PART 2 OF The Survey Serial

Ok so here is part two I may update a bit sooner this week so stay tuned.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Serial Part two coming monday

Ok so the next part will be posted on Monday. So whats everyones opinion on it? You like it? I dunno LOL either way im happy. This isnt one of those do it and get blocked series for me I have it all planned out but I wanna do it serial form.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Annoucing the first Part of my serial Blog Series "THE SURVEY"

Ok this was inspired by two very different sources, first one is obviously from the movie "The Box" The second part was the survey which was sent to me back in the late 90's out of the blue.

Hope you all enjoy the first part and the second part will be up in a few days. Please leave feeback if you got some.

Random thoughts

Hello to my two followers and to whoever else reads this. I am just a bit stuck right now on what to do exactly for my serial captions for this blog. I really think it will hit me at the worst time, when I cant do it and lose it. THat lately has been a huge issue with me, I get the most brilliant idea dont have any way to record it and then its gone. But yeah it is on its way I have like three ideas going around I wrote a story the other day I need to just edit it. I may just use that as the plot, anyways you will see it soon.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Welcome friends

Hello my friends, I hope you enjoy this Blog as much as I enjoy writing it. You will find Captions here I have done and I will also be offering a Serial set of Captions that I promise will be updated at least once a week. I love to Caption and I seriously hope you all enjoy it

These are captions I did for Angie and Bren from the Haven